Review in NYT

the feeling of being alone is extremely intense. so intense that it scorches. yet it is the intensity of being free to live life on your own terms. to see life through your own eyes. and when this desire sets in everything else fades away. the focus is all and everything on re-inventing the world around. and in this narcissistic, self-absorbed endeavor love, bonds and friends are forgotten.
the panic is only when the absorbed, solitary inventor gave into the world. and was clueless about its ways. in an effort to understand, she made inroads to the death of her own soul. she is to be lost. always.

after all the blogs & articles I read, thought this video gave the best brief introduction to apple's iphone. quite funny actually.

pretty cool guitar playing.. you can check out more of their videos on youtube.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9KBgg-hrtyo&mode=related&search=

questionnaires are like astrological forecasts. cause of great curiosity and reluctant beliefs. the entrepreneurial motivation questionnaire from the Wall Street Journal quantifies your motivational factors in three areas - Achievement, Affiliation & Power. Would be interesting to check it out. I scored 61 on Achievement, 38 on Affiliation & 33 on Power. I would say it's about right.

Stuff of the moment…
Betwixt the souls of reality
The eye of the tiger shines

To Time the casual jester
We asked - Why put
A Love Wreath on our hearts?

You whose legs floating
In the river of peace
Pointed to heaven and screamed
‘Give me my sorrow’s due’
Whither have you left
Leaving me the ghost memories.


Silver afternoons
A red poem on the wings of my butterfly memories
I sang. To you my dream-a-too lover,
My Thunderbird silly smiler,
Snickers sharer, Beautiful Mind defender,
Ridiculously yet you vanish saying
“Pss… but I like you…”,
Innocent eyes on silver afternoons.


To the Gods with feet of Clay
Why did you relieve my heart with your presence?
Give me the inspiration to dream
Show me a path to follow
Fill me with hope of a better tomorrow
And a need to be like you
When you had feet of clay.


The Hope of Deliverance
When the dreams of tomorrow die
Like a withered gnarled tree
And sorrows continue their keening
How will I spy me in the Mirror?
For the talons of a broken heart
Scale the smiles of my eyes
They break between the sighs
And strangle the hopeful voice
When do I see within the palms of time
The day of my deliverance due?


The Song of Silence
Upon those aquamarine blues
They sang to me in silence.
They - the pack of soulful terrors.
And whilst my heart passion-raced
They disappeared into the night
Leaving footprints in my mind’s gaze.


Inebriated on life
In this frivolous trivial world
Whither will we fly lil bird?
Under the bright blue sky
Roam into the corners of eternity
Sigh at the intensity of the splendous lines
Twirl within the spaces of our minds
Waltz on the undulating waves of time
Stare at the autumn vibrant butterfly
Toe onto the vertigo of infinity
Seek if for a moment to be blown
To die, to annihilate ourselves
Phoenix-like rise again and smile
Hold hands and walk on dusk-dappled beaches
Weeping within ourselves
And singing the life-song.

i start the day today feeling supremely calm and happy, and as the day progresses i feel that perhaps one day will go by without me getting upset. and bang.

i am told not to take things personally. honestly, i don't really understand what that means. i think it means to reach a stage where you won't feel bad doing/saying something that will not affect you even if you are on the receiving end. thing is i don't do/say such things. and very seriously i don't want to be subjected to the same.

in my case, it's bcoz of banging my head against a lethargic system that doesn't really know how to reward its performers. add to that my innate laid back-ness. not a great formula.

still i feel that there's a better way/method of coping. i don't want to get upset/stressed about things i can't do much about. but then when one wants to change the system/process there is a way right? i think i should focus my energies on immediate gains. keep taking those small steps.

however, the art of keeping calm demands that one lets go. forget it. there will be a time to strike. until then keep one's mind clear and focussed. build up one's case. keep collecting those minor evidences. then when one has one's case well researched, strike. strike so hard that the foe falls dead. then work slowly towards burying them/it.

a good article in The NYT on google's search algorithm. a must read for those who are interested in knowing how the google search engine works.

Google Keeps Tweaking Its Search Engine

here's my quick summary:

a. google's impressive tracking system traverses through all of internet's web pages and indexes them. they, therefore, know exactly where, what kind of information is available
b. Signals, as google calls them, 'involves more than 200 types of information' which rank web pages
c. These signals in turn feed Classifiers - formulae that infer about the 'type of search' from the search terms
d. these classifiers & signals in turn measure the relevancy of a web page. the more the diversity on the page in terms of content, the better its rating

no one should ever play the second fiddle to someone else or something else. we are all fantastic people and we should never lose sight of that fact. if we can't be important enough then it's time to take stock of things.